What is peace that everyone speaks of? They talk of it like it is one of their best friends or a member of their family. Maybe that’sthe problem, I feel like I don’t even know my who are my friends any more. Those people that talk down upon me and just pull me toward drinking and getting high, they are no friends of mine now. Sean, Nay-Nay, Jo, Cody, B-Down…. They are my true friends. So lean on family right, wrong. You cant lean on things that don’t understand or get whats going on. That sounds peaceful doesn’t it?
This “peace” is used to be like a foreign language to me. Like a sweet wine but yet not being of age to drink it. Like a cruel joke that I didn’t understand why it was so funny. Peace was like a little dog you chase down the street. It used to taunt me by letting me close, then it just left me even further away from true peace.
I used to try to find temporary peace in golf, but what good is four hours of peace if you only dread to go back to reality. It would play in the back of my head, three holes left, two holes left, last hole, it is over. Now everything you had left for those four hours has now doubled and comes crashing down upon you like a ton of bricks. I would try to fill this hole in my heart by putting alcohol, hatred, drugs, sports,ect.. but none of this would ever make it better, it would only make the hole bigger.
So my question to you is what is your peace, and is it true peace or is it like chasing the dog. If you try to find peace in a person then you are never going to find it. A person can only help you find peace, they can not be your peace. No matter what you think of them, they are not perfect and they have issues them self. God is the only true peace on this sinful place we call Earth. But now I told you this here comes the hard part. If you want eternal peace that will last forever, then you will have to take ridicule from humans on Earth. It wont be easy, but a lifetime with peace will be worth all redicule. But if you ever forget that the lord is your only true peace, just remember this”the lord will always take care of his children. If you give it all to him then he will always take care of you and it will all work out for the best. ” One of the best and smartest girls in the world told me that when I first started my walk back with the lord, and she was completely right. Thankyou Jordan for all you have helped me thorugh.
God Bless You
Jake Gladson